Email to T

I'm being completely lazy today, but, I don't care. Here is my email that I sent to Elder T., which gives a pretty good update and highlights what I learned At Church Today because it culminates everything I've been  thinking about lately, in a succinct way, which is something I definitely struggle with... :)

One thing I wanted to be sure to tell you was: Let it be ok. As you may know, I am a perfectionist, and get stressed because of it. I also love to know everything and feel like I need to be in control.

Well, lately, I've decided to let my best effort be ok. Let my lack of knowledge be ok and not prevent me from having faith, I can let it be ok that God is in charge and not me. It is a tricky balance because it would be easy to be lazy, but I can keep working and striving to come unto my Savior. If I focus on what I can do, and leave the rest to Him, it will work out.

Secondly, I am friends with myself now. I recently discovered this is something I can be learning while I am living here. I am not very happy here to be honest, with my roommates, and I don't have a buddy friend like I'm accustomed to, but I am learning to do things with myself, to let it be ok that I'm my best friend right now, I'm finding I'm pretty cool... :) I don't know if that makes sense, but I've never really had to think if I was friends with myself, like if I actually liked who I was. That may be foreign to you, and you may think I'm crazy, but it's been nice to have a friend - even if that friend is me - I always understand my perspective and I can be patient with myself.

Ok. That's about it. As for what I've been up to - I got to go up to the RS conference yesterday, that was good, I really enjoyed it. I mostly took away that I am out of one of my life storms, so while I am not being pounded upon, I can strengthen those around me. More storms will come, for sure, but I am secure enough where I'm at to strengthen my sisters/brothers, etc. 


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I also wanted to say that I know my Redeemer lives and that Jesus is the Christ. I know that when I remember that everything else falls into place and I can be at peace. And I will continue to do the small things, praying as often as possible and studying the scriptures, and making a conscious effort to be more like my Savior, that I will improve.

Keep striving.

Remember your covenants and keep them

There will be times where you will feel foolish, where you will get distracted from truth and righteousness. Repent quickly. Come back to Christ.

You don't need to give heed to temptation. Prepare, know your weaknesses, build your foundation in Christ,  and move forward.

Also, just because it hasn't happened yet, I can remember the joy and promises, recognizing Him in my life even though it isn't the Big Important things right now - whatever those are for me today, tomorrow, or ever.

Trust in the third member of the Godhead, and what He has revealed to you. We are not alone and we can keep going in faith, building our foundation on truth.