Christmas Bells are Ringing

You know it's the end of the year when... the cute Primary kids sing, the choir goes up, and you hear wonderful talks about our Savior.

I've been living at my parents', trying to sort out a messy apartment situation, and have been loving the care I have found here. I am still paying for my old place, and my gas bill has gone significantly up, and it gets overwhelming at times.

I was sitting in church today, when I realized I was starting to have a panic moment again - life, the future, how literally stuck I am, and it hit me, that living at home, I can ignore it easier. The problems haven't gone away, but, I've found the support I need to think about other things. So, I realized this, but once I start freaking out, I kinda want to finish... so, I thought about that, and then decided that I'd just keep ignoring it, and go back to focusing on the wonderful lesson we were given about the Savior and how we can make sure He is in our daily lives.

I have another blog, called "Invitation to Remember" for just that purpose. I'm coming up/past my year mark, I can't really remember, ironically. I haven't become a sensation, people aren't passing my thoughts around, and I am no where near famous. But, I have come so much closer to knowing my Savior.

I want to keep coming closer to Him. I want to know Him, to trust Him completely, to ignore all the endless possibilities for sadness and misery and remember that He has promised me peace and eternal joy.

I am right where I need to be. I don't know how everything is going to sort out, but I am at peace. I just pray that I get to enjoy it for a little bit before my bubble bursts again with a new storm of troubles. I'm just learning how to deal with the ones I've got (so yes, queue the next wave...), and it is through relying on my family, by finding deliberate ways to keep getting better, to trust a little more, and to remember Him a little more often.

Merry Christmas, everyone.