New Beginnings

As opposed to 'old beginnings' or just simply 'beginnings'


Anyway - at church today we had invited all the graduating seniors to come to the singles ward - to show them we aren't scary and it could be cool to hang out with us... and to worship too.

Overall, I feel like the day went really well. I still don't really have friends here - but that is probably more my fault than anything else, so I shouldn't complain. I just feel like it would take longer here to break into real friendships with them and I don't know how long I'll be here (obviously long enough I should try harder).

I feel like I recognize the Spirit now stronger in new ways, and less strongly in the ways I am used to, so it is hard for me to understand - so I turn to other sources to try to validate it either way.

We talked a lot about temples today and I feel like that is where I need to spend more time. I am running into a bit of a pride problem since I haven't been endowed yet, and feel really old and or stuck in the baptistery now. So, it was a good reminder to go back anyway.

I am much more comfortable in the background - going unnoticed - but keep finding myself either calling attention to me or having others point me out and I am not sure how I feel about it. And like life, I am finding it hard to understand what I want anymore.

Well, at church today I definitely felt the Spirit, and I was able to remember my Savior a little more clearly. Hopefully my pride walls are coming down faster than they are going up. That's the idea anyway...