Today I remembered and have felt impressed to write this post as a background to an upcoming post for my other blog, Remember. The topic I want to write about must be done delicately because it is on the different faces of pride and how humility shapes us to allow God to mold us into who we truly can become.
Let me be clear, humility shapes us, which then helps us allow God to shape our eternal characters.
We briefly talked about humility in our Sacrament meeting, how having a broken heart and a contrite spirit allow us to repent, and how that is how we become as God. It was an incredible meeting.
Something happened to me today - I have been studying Isaiah lately in the scriptures, and one of the concepts is that revelation comes by small and simple things, that it comes "here a little, there a little" it's very poetic and I love it. I realized that this big task I've been given, to "give" God the control in my life, has been coming slowly and surely. This day, I learned that I don't quite yet have the desire to fully follow God's "schedule" for my life. I now want to have that desire, but there is still a rebellious corner of my heart that wants it my way, that wants it to be something I can control and maneuver between on my own.
As I've been learning the past few weeks, I am on my way to a truly contrite and humble spirit. I am working and I am improving. The Spirit guides me to become better and has been helping me daily realize things that can help.
Here a little, there a little. It's been amazing to watch the pieces of my progression fall into place with me just asking for help and desiring to become better. He listens and He helps me, always.
There are different types of pride in the balance of life. It all comes down to the priorities in our hearts, whether they be on God's truth, or whatever else we place as more important. God lives, and He will help you put the pieces together and become better, one step at a time, if you'll let Him.
I sometimes worry that even though I am trying to follow His schedule, I am messing it up.
ReplyDeleteSpecifically: I've felt for over a year that I really need to move. To do so, I needed to save up money and get a new job lined up so I can have insurance and security when living over a thousand miles from home. Because it's taken so long already, and I haven't always been focusing 100% on finding said new job, I feel like I've already missed out on whatever opportunities I need to move for. Then I get discouraged and slack off some more...
I totally relate to that feeling. The only comfort I can find for that is through prayer and listening, in these times I often hear that His plan will work out and He already knows where I'll fall short and has compensated for it, as I honestly try to improve.
DeleteOften times, that means repenting quickly, and keeping the determination to have hope in my heart. Sometimes I just have to determine that I will have hope for my future because the devil is quite talented at getting me depressed, feeling like I've messed up and I can't have that joy everyone keeps talking about.
So, I decide to keep going anyway, because I'd rather do that, than stay in that darker place of fear and doubt about what my future holds. "The future is as bright as your faith" is something I love to remember.
We can do it, even if we mess up along the way, somehow it all works out.
How are your moving plans? Last I heard you were seriously thinking Texas... :)
It's always been Texas. The only changes there have been whether to focus on San Antonio, Austin, or one of the cities in between. And it's all about as well planned as it can be without knowing when I'll be going.
ReplyDeleteAh. That makes sense. Is it still very unknown?
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