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Today at church, I was reminded of a few tender lessons, that really helped me, especially after a hard day yesterday.

First, is that you can't stop at testimony, but let it convert you to Christ, and then, once you have been converted, you must turn outward and serve to truly purify your life and bless the lives of others.

Just keep trying - the Atonement helps perfect us, and it may take us awhile to get there but it is possible. I felt the Spirit say to me today: "I wouldn't sacrifice so much for nothing. You can become like Me - I will help you get there. Just keep going."

It is easy to look down at yourself and be discouraged. You're not 'good' enough? Welcome to the club. Believe Christ. He is there for you, He has promised to help even - and especially - you come back, to truly become Celestial through your mortal life and challenges.

Yesterday was a hard day for me. I was tired, not feeling good, and Satan was having fun with my thoughts and emotions. It is hard for me to be deliberate in my life. I want to be good, but I don't always want to put in the effort. Yesterday, Christ helped me find things I could put effort into, and things I could do to find joy with what is going on. It started with Him pointing out that if I did what I did, because of the Spirit, then it wasn't a mistake, even if it didn't have the outcome I wanted. I was to learn and become a better person because of it. My life isn't being wasted, but I do need to step up and start living again, not just as an excited spectator, but as a person diligently doing their part.

He helped my heart heal a little bit more, and I am more resolved to follow Him, to keep striving, and to believe Christ is My Savior.