I took SO many notes yesterday and today. I won't regale them all for you, because seriously, there are a lot. I learned and remembered several things which helped me open my heart to the Spirit and have strength to stop looking down and remember to look up and to be grateful. That is probably the biggest lesson I learned/remembered. We are not alone.
Sometimes, I can be so hard hearted. So blind to truth and to the enabling power of the Savior, if I would just remember to look up. And often, I selfishly conclude that my prayers must not be getting through or that even worse, He doesn't care about me.
Luckily, I got a sound, caring, chastening yesterday and today. And, I got help softening my heart so I could hear and be edified again, strengthening my resolve to move forward however I can. We have so much to do, so much to focus on, and so I can just look around and take comfort from my Savior.
One thing that has come to my mind a few times this week has been the idea that we are built on His rock. Over the past few months, I imagined myself kind of on the side of a giant cliff (it's made of rock), clinging to it, begging to be taken care of and supported, as the sea surges and storms around me.
It has only been lately that I have thought that maybe, just maybe, just maybe, I am not on the cliff's side. I am firmly grounded far from the edge, carefully watched over as I worry and fret, with my Savior pleading with me to open my eyes and trust in Him. So, I am letting you know that I'm opening my eyes - as fast as I metaphorically can, but for it to be in my character will take time and that's ok. I am working on building my trust in Him, even if I shut my eyes periodically and cling to the rock. One day I'll look back at how silly I must look clinging to the rock, but well, it will have to be ok at present as I am working on it but not perfect yet. :)
The reminder and commandment to trust Him is what hit home with me at this conference. Everything is alright, and He is the Master and Commander. I can be faithful and I can live on this rock. I can open my eyes, and my heart, to trust in Him and reach out to others. I am secure where I stand and I can help, I need to help. It is by letting my Savior be my Savior, and following in His way, that I find peace and strength, to live in happiness as He would have be do. He loves me infinitely more than I can imagine and I can remember that I am not forgotten, insignificant, or alone. I also have a great responsibility to help those around me and lift where I stand.
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