Questions

So, with this new ward, I've been trying to be more social. I go to every activity and have decided not to wait for people to reach out to me, but instead will reach out to others. In the past, it's been the resident members' job to reach out or else I'd just stay in my bubble. But, this time, I decided to open up a little and look for friends and people to help.

I was worried for today's meeting, a special Fast and Testimony meeting, because I live in a very small ward even though it has big boundaries, and people are more reserved about participating. I shouldn't have been worried. There wasn't any downtime in between any of the testimonies. I may have been asked to give the prayer a lot today and there weren't many members of the choir, but, it was a good day.

By this point, you may be asking why I titled this "Questions" and I shall now tell you. As is my habit, in an effort to be accountable for what I've felt in my meetings, I take notes. My notes were full of questions today, about me, my progress, and what my goals were. Reading them again, there aren't as many questions as I thought, but the main takeaway for me was to keep looking at how I'm doing, good and bad, knowing truth about who I am and what I believe.

I shall just write my notes I think and let you interpret them. Good luck...

What is in your heart?
Listen to the Spirit, find Truth through diligent study and action
Open your heart a little more to Him. Ask Him for more help and trust that it will be taken care of as you do what you can, even if it doesn't seem related to the end goal.
Look upward, turn outward, and keep moving forward
Follow the Spirit, Hold on in faith, you have strength enough through Christ
Find strength through your family.
Trust enough to follow Him as He leads you (yes, I thought of ballroom dancing here, and life can definitely feel that way, that I'm going backwards, though sometimes I am directed into "promenade" or other positions and can literally see where I'm going... I'll have to write a post about that soon... I like the imagery...)
Be a little more humble.
Accept light and truth in whatever form it comes. If it is good, even if it is not perfect, even if it doesn't seem 'worthy' as long as it is good, and the motives are right.
Choose to see the good in the world.
You, too, can be forgiven. Be at peace. You have strength sufficient.
Find joy in learning and in growth, even if it is hard
Reread your Patriarchal Blessing, see how God shows His love for you, how He is showing you part of your potential and that you are so loved. Look at how bright your future is. Keep going in faith.
What value and meaning does it have to you that the Book of Mormon and other scriptures are REAL? That they actually happened, the people at that time lived and died, loved and hated?
How can we gain strength by getting to know them?
How has the gospel changed your life?
You really are being guided back to him. Trust in where Christ leads you.