Sick Day

So, today I stayed home from church sick. When I got up, I listened to Mormon Messages to somehow make up for missing church - my sister giving a talk and my mom teaching the Relief Society lesson - and still find the relief of the gospel that my heart is searching for.

Take a look over these videos whenever you need a spiritual feast. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xdN8rfwW3SI&feature=share&list=PL4E784EC0770935C0

We can do all things through Christ - even hope, even find peace, and even find joy. Watching some of these videos brought tears to my eyes, the words profoundly what I was needing after a long, tiring weekend - and struggles with faith.

I can make a difference too - I'm not sure where my path is leading specifically, but I have great hope and belief that there is joy for me yet in this life and I can hope for the eternal future. I am so grateful for these videos. I should watch more than I do. They really help bring my stubborn heart back to Christ. I know they don't make up for missing the Sacrament, or my family's testimonies. However, I can still find joy and peace from the comfort of my bed while I wait out this brief sickness.

I haven't missed church in quite a long time due to illness and it is quite weird. My mom had to basically command me to stay at home today - she didn't but she directed me to make my own decision about what would be best.

Sometimes, I need to give up what I feel my roles are - what my responsibilities are, and just trust that taking a break, giving up my desires, will get me where I truly want to be.

He knows what and where I truly want to be and loves me enough to help me get there, especially when I don't realize it myself. I can be at peace today and I am happy, I am loving my life and my struggles (especially from a distance and refuge of my home). Things will work out and I can be happy.