Priesthood!

My little brother was ordained a deacon today! I asked him if he felt all cool and epic now, he said yes. :)

So, that was on my mind a lot today, what that really means to hold the priesthood, to honor the priesthood, and how having the priesthood here on earth helps us become more like God.

At my parents' ward today. Sacrament Meeting focused on charity, which was great, I love the focus on becoming, not just acting charitable. They also made having charity seem like something I could develop, because sometimes I fear I will never "have charity," but it seems within reach now. So that's good. If it's like anything else I've received in my life, this knowledge will fade a little, but I can come back quickly and remember that it is looking past myself just a little to help another.

My dad taught Gospel Doctrine, and I haven't really gone to my ward's lesson because I am a Mission Prep teacher in our class there so I have missed out on that lately. We talked about Mosiah, and how it really happened, how there is real evidence for this, and how God is with us everyday. We sometimes get lost in the forest, because we only focus on the trees around us, and we don't see the whole forest, the whole plan of Salvation, eternity. One person mentioned that when we open our hearts, we can see the whole forest through our faith.

RS combined with Priesthood today, and we talked of Christ and the Atonement, its healing power and strength that come from it. We listened to precious testimonies of our Savior, and I truly felt peace today.

This day has been amazing. I have more thoughts but I am actually going to put them on my other blog when I either can't sleep tonight or sometime soon, but I wanted to put them there because it is my main blog where this is more like my journal...if that makes sense... Anyway. Today was amazing. I just left feeling so rock-solid, like I am right where I need to be, even though I can't see the details in my future. I know they are there, I know God has a plan for me, and I know that I am doing what I need to; even though I am not perfect yet, I am working on it, and I am doing well. This day was really needed. I sure missed my brother who's on a mission, but I wouldn't want to take him from where he is, because where he was strong before, he will be so much stronger because of this. It's a priority thing. I just wish that...I could only have what I want, that things would just be "perfect" right away, but, I also know that true happiness and meaning requires and really makes me desire trials and sacrifice, but anyway, I am off topic and really wordy. Today was a great day :)

I'd put a picture here, but my mom hasn't sent it to me yet, how rude! Haha, no, it just proves why I like to be the one with the camera...it's a control problem...issue...thing? :)

Have Faith-Keep Moving Forward

Well, today was actually an unusual day for me. I woke up feeling really sick, but by the time I needed to go to church, I felt better and was able to go. Half-way through the first speaker's talk, I was too sick and had to go home. And no, I wasn't paying too much attention before I left.

We did talk about Moroni 10 though, that was the topic. I remember that.

Well, I still learned a lot today. This week has actually been really crazy as far as learning experiences. For instance, I miraculously avoided 3 dangerous collisions with big trucks on Friday, proving I must have some great purpose because I am not that good of a driver. That's a different story.

Today, I just truly reaffirmed my faith to follow God even though I don't see the details in the finished project. I know God has a plan for me and that I am right where I need to be, and life is good. Life is happy, and life is moving forward. I know that if I could truly glimpse at how my life will unfold even for the next couple of months, I know I would not change a single thing, experience or emotion, as I move forward in faith. I hope for happiness and joy and know that the Lord will be faithful in keeping His promises to me, even if they don't make quantitative or currently-measurable sense... :) Meaning, of course that even though I cannot see how, I know that with God, nothing is impossible, no matter how scary the future seems, how uncertain, how doomed-to-failure it may seem, I know that it is not, and I know that Christ is with me every step and moment of my journey.

This was what I reaffirmed today.

Change Your Mindset

Yesterday and today were quite eventful days for me. If you're here, it's probably because of my other blog so I won't trouble you with rehearsing yesterday. Anyway, this blog focuses on what I learned and pondered at church, so that is where I will focus.

The biggest overall message I can tell you is that I learned I need to change my mindset. Today, April 15, 2012, I have re-determined to follow Christ, to change the definitions in my head that need changing, to trust Him a little more.

If you read my last post on the Remember blog, you know that I struggled with the mindset of self-worth and that Christ loves me, He hasn't forgotten me, and that His eternal plan is still there for me. I could not see the entire forest because of the trees surrounding me, which trees felt so overwhelming and convincing that I started to despair a little.

I took a LOT of notes today. I can't capture all that I learned or felt. I will try to remember and scan in my notes, and maybe put them as a picture on here tomorrow.

The main thing is that we need to find out where we are falling short, where we don't understand, where we are off, even if it is just a little, and change our mindset.

Sacrament Meeting focused on Alma 5, and the speakers were truly inspired. We need to know what we believe in, not just what we have been taught, we need to change our mindset so that these things match. One speaker mentioned Isaiah 1 where it talks about the Lord being basically bored with our vain performance of ordinances, we need to change our mindset so that we are doing the right things for the right reasons.  I am in the right place. The Lord knows me. He knows how to speak to us, and He will never force us to be happy, but as we prepare our hearts, we can Let Him in, it is a choice we make, and we must make it repeatedly. It is a commandment to have faith and to trust in the Savior, are you living it? I know I need to do better.

In Mission Prep we talked about changing our mindset from what success truly means. It is not always measurable, it is measured by the Lord though. It is based off of your effort and commitment to live like He does.

It is the hardest thing, to submit your will to the Father's, but it is the best thing. Shift your mindset. You may have to do this many times a day, but, it truly is for the best. One of Satan's biggest tools is discouragement, and it gets me a lot, have faith. The Lord has not forgotten you. He is proud of what you have accomplished in your life and will grant you the most happiness. He will never force anyone to be happy. Yet, if you desire to be with Him, He will help you get there.

Loving each other is what the gospel is all about. Change your mindset off of what is measurable, to what is right. Often, that can be measured, but it is not limited to it. Don't forget the true meaning of service and love, get to know people, then you will love them and serve them. It is not more complicated than that. Find your purpose in living with those around you, you will find and know what to do.

April 8, 2012 Easter

Today was Easter. We devoted the day to discussing our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. The very biggest thing I learned was that it is vital that I remember that this applies to me too. The Atonement is real, and it is infinite and eternal. It does more than just lets me into heaven, it fits me for heaven. Christ is real. He lives. He is actively working in my life, and I need to do a better job recognizing His hand in my life. I am worth His love, and I can share it with others. I need to share it with others.

We have light and truth. We see things more clearly, how they are, were, and will be. This is why we strive to obey more laws and commandments than is popular today.

We need to stand at a higher plane, and make our lives more holy.

Come unto Christ today. Choose today to be a little better, more fit for His Kingdom. I am choosing this today. I will commit to being a little better. I will commit to knowing my Savior more personally. I will come unto Him, and reach out to His reaching.

I will not leave the higher ground, instead I will continue to climb higher. When I fall, which I will, I will quickly get back up, and not heed the devil's subtle words that I have fallen too far. I am still worth so much because He loves me. I do not need to spend one more second in this hell that I've created for myself, feeling trapped by darkness and grief. He is the way, the truth, and the light, and I can be happy now, as I come unto Him.

General Conference Notes

General Conference April 2012

*Note, these are not all of my notes... I am rather prolific in my note taking, so I tried to summarize. You can, if for some reason you want to...they can be found here...like I said, this blog is more of my journal, so it's more so I have a trail of everything. Also, these are in order of the speakers, I just didn't identify it in this copy...in the full version over on Google Docs, I did include them of course. :)

Keep the sunshine in your heart, go forward in faith, let go of your fears, let your cares depart, trust in Christ.

find the beauty in your world, treasure it, search for it, hope for children and progression

He knows and loves you perfectly, so trust where He has put you and what He has put in your path.

Remember the worth of each other, and don’t get stuck focused only on yourself, your needs, your wishes, etc. Christ is taking care of you, and has asked you to help take care of others now too.

Be Christ centered in thought, speech, and action. Endure until the end is part of this pattern, have the gift and POWER of the HG, lifted up. Power that comes by being faithful disciples of Christ and loving those around us. Love is root of all virtue and strength and fidelity to do right.

Desire to serve Him. Be humble in your sacrifice and in your views of each other. What can you do in your ordinary life? Put aside your quest for personal fulfillment, that is the path of the world, your fulfillment will work itself out. Seek to help fulfill those around you. It’s true isn’t it? Then what else truly matters?

Life requires patience. Have faith that Christ will give you strength to endure. Act on the pure love of Christ, forgive, and serve them. Polishing takes time, and you will get there, yes, even you with all your weaknesses, He has a plan and knows how to help you get there, just like He is there for His prophets and leaders, your path may be different, but the end is the same, feel the Love of God, angels in your life to help bear even you up. You are not alone, you are treasured and you are on the right track, the road may seem hard and long, but you are stronger than you know when you keep trusting in God each day. Choose today to remember Christ and walk in His paths.

Redeemer of Israel is leading you to Zion in Love. Keep walking through the valley of death, and find joy in Christ. Fear not, the tokens already appear, rejoice. The hour of redemption is here. :) Trust in Him, your Lord and Savior, even Jesus Christ, He is Here in all your trials and will hasten peace to your heart.

Enjoy the blessings, and surely I am free to do what is right, ‘why should you be jealous because I choose to be kind?’ There are times when someone else gets unexpected blessings and special recognition. Please do not be hurt, or feel envious when good fortune comes to others. We are not diminished when others succeed, this is not a race. Step up, do what is right. You are loved and watched over. You can have the future He envisions for you, and it is glorious beyond description

The sacrament gives us an opportunity to come to ourselves and have a mighty change of heart and be more obedient. Meet together often to remember and to commit to do better, we all need help.

Serve significantly. Pray for others. Your best is good enough. Despite all struggle, be determined and keep going. Happiness will come. Let it into your heart today.

Build things of eternal worth. Do not be weary of well doing. Do my actions place me in the Lord’s or the enemy’s territory?

be a force for good! Don’t be tone-deaf to the music of faith. Do not become discouraged. Have faith, live like Christ which is the determining test of mortality.

Trust in God. Learn to ASK, that is how we receive revelation, and we need it so much. I fast, I pray to find and understand important/helpful scripture. Ponder. When we think of others first we gain inspiration more often. We were not put on earth to fail but to succeed gloriously. Be wise.

pure word of God to heal the broken hearts. Envy and hatred are the beginnings of tragic stories; remember that people often have good motives and we should not try to justify ourselves through envy and resentment. Let go of hurt and learn to heal through the Atonement. Yes, of course it is difficult. Remember even small sins are enough to keep you from eternal peace. Let go of pain and anger. Lay your burden at His feet, let His atonement change your heart.

Make a list of how you can do better, and how you see His hand in your life today. We are all born with a capacity to grow. There are good things in store for you this week, today, this month. We have a great responsibility. Believe in God, that He is, that He created all, that He is all wise and powerful, and repent and humble self before God.

learn special lessons tied to eternities. We all need help. I need help. You need help. We learn special lessons through challenges. Works of God shall be made manifest in our lives, learn patience faith gratitude through service. Don’t despair because you see not, “I will not leave you comfortless...my peace I give unto you...let your heart not be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” Keep listening and learning from the special lessons.

You are part of a glorious heritage. Find patterns and examples of worthy and righteous things to follow in our lives. Align yourselves with God. Live your part faithfully. Your future is full of promise.

The core doctrine is reestablished: Godhead united--repent and believe in Christ, Keep your heart open to the Spirit, and follow its teachings, even if you are surprised at first. The fundamental principle is the testimony of Jesus Christ, that He lived, died and was buried, and rose again.

Everywhere people are in a hurry. Mediate on timeless truths. Seek to be obedient in heart, mind, and deed. Be there with Him Reach heavenward for assistance as we make our way along life’s pathways. Let your destination be more than the end of the path of least resistance. Choose actively. He remembers you. He speaks to us all, come to Him, come up, come in, come home, come unto Me. (Interesting progression. First, we don’t know Christ, we must come up from the world, let ourselves into His love, His home and peace, and then we can come to know Him and find peace with Him.)

Heavenly Father, my heart is hurting again. I am sorry it hurts so easily, I just feel like I have been given a promise, and it’s hard to see it happening, ever, just the way things are going right now. I don’t know what to do or how to set aside my sadness and hurt, I know how, I guess, so that is not quite accurate- I just need a little help again feeling happy. I know that Thou hast beautiful plan laid out for me and I just need a little added strength to keep going is what I am asking for today. I do not want to fall to grief or pain, and I want to keep the vision in my heart, so please help me. “May we be willing listeners” from the opening prayer. Keep trusting Him, even when things keep coming up. Angels are near you and will give you aid, wherever and whenever you need it. Come unto Jesus, He is reaching out to you, run to Him.

Prepare and participate in your life. Share your love with others. Share the tender mercies. Let Him heal your heart. He knows what is at stake and He knows how to best help you achieve it. Please don’t give up, you are so close. Let your heart be of good cheer. Personally work for what is right.

We have the HG to follow back to the right path, and through the Atonement, we can end being lost and in the dark. We can find light and joy. Happiness is found in specific places, in the home, in service, and by following Christ, strengthening each other. Prioritize, then act in that order. Remember to love. Be honest and honorable in heart, seek what is good.

Fasting and prayer, utilize the blessings of heaven to prepare for our bright future, act by seeking the Lord’s blessings. All will be well, you know this. Gain and act on your vision of eternity. Believe that HE can bless you with vision, desire, and strength to act. Have faith, little one. Accept His invitation, come unto Him.

Act only by persuasion, long suffering, gentleness, meekness, and love unfeigned. know that I am loved. I am welcome. I am home. This is the Lord’s way. Come unto Him

Spend time in the things that matter most. We are all part of the great work, and have a great worth and ability to help further the work. Who can you help? He will direct you, and you can be an instrument in His hands

Our strength to endure depends on our ability to recognize, remember, and hold sacred that which we receive from above. We encounter the Divine every time we feel the Spirit. If you desire a further witness, remember the witness you have received, it truly is from God. What greater witness can you have than from God?

See the Lord’s hand all around us, we know our eternal destination. You have a lot to work on, and as you hunger and thirst after righteousness, we will be given guidance on how to get there. In our darkest hours, remember to pray. Pray for inspiration. Continue to walk. Hope. Pray. Sing as you go. You will be found. You are heard. You are treasured. See the miracles during the pain.

May we call upon Him always, He will pour out His Spirit upon us, and we will find peace and strength that we desperately need.

Only He can save our hearts and souls and restore them to joy. We need Him every hour because sin and weakness are ever present, and only He can help us, save us truly from the darkness; in joy and in pain. Keep learning. Keep trying a little harder to be a little better, more like Christ.

Past entries post 2

March 11, 2012

Stake Conference—The focus of Saturday’s adult session was on service-The focus of today in general was ministry, doing your part and lifting where you stand. This has been important to me because I have spent too much time focused on myself and have much more motivation to look past myself now and more ideas how to do so. I will take lots of work but with God’s help, I can change… I just loved the focus on how service was truly just an expression of love I know that that is not new information, just something I hadn’t really thought of. Though it has been many hours since Stake Conference occurred, I just remember the feeling of love that I felt. My needs and my specific plans are in the hands of the Lord and I know that I follow Him, and His promise is sure that I will never fall. Therefore, it becomes expedient to lift where I stand and help bring others to Christ. Service does not come separate from love. We serve because we love. Take no thought for the morrow, what you have to do, where you want to go, etc. Live your life in such a way that you can listen to what the Lord needs you to do. Do the small and simple things to prepare yourself today to serve the Lord.

March 18, 2012

Today, I was touched mostly by something that came to me in Relief Society, it is something that I’ve already learned, but it was a touching, personal reminder. We had been given a list of quotes, and I loved many of them, and thought how I wanted to put them up on my wall, and read them often so I would never forget them. Then I thought about how I had this experience so often, and it was impossible to remember everything all the time, etc. Well, it hit me then that that is why we go to church each week, why we have stake and general conferences, why we are asked to read and study the words of ancient and modern prophets. We need help to remember. My home teachers stopped by today and we were talking about this a little and one mentioned a quote, roughly that the natural man forgets who he/she is, and that is why they sin. They forget who they are, where they are going, etc.

Sacrament Meeting we discussed the Book of Mormon, its power unto conversion and direction; it was really good and I want to be better at studying it.

Mission/Temple prep we discussed the Plan of Salvation, I want to re-read D&C 76:50-70, and study just what Celestial Glory really is, etc. Come to know our personal Savior by learning of Him through studying His words in the Scriptures and His plan for His creations, us.

Relief Society was really inspired today. We discussed 3 things in relation to improving visiting teaching. 1. Develop a stronger relationship with God- tat we are comfortable having a true conversation with Him, and that He knows and cares about us. We can do this by spending quality time with Him. 2. Develop a stronger relationship with yourself and with others, remembering to have compassion and forgiveness for yourself and for others, yes. You are imperfect, you make mistakes, you misunderstand promptings, you fall hard and often, but you are going great. You are on the path, you are getting better. Keep going. Keep learning. Keep trusting. Keep working. 3. Learn to Listen. I think this is an excellent way to give true and meaningful service; by asking inspired questions, by remembering that Little Things Count, that the Spirit will guide you as you seek His counsel and you will do good in the world. Listen with patience and with love, when you focus on others. Then, Bishop Sloan came in and talked a little about modesty, the stake is seeing an alarming number of immodest wedding dresses/etc from former stake members, and the general lack of modesty worldwide influencing us is a problem. We discussed that our personal modesty is a reflection of our personal identity and shows who we are, how we respect ourselves and others. Today was an amazing day and I have remembered and felt so much. J

March 25, 2012

Fast and Testimony focused on the Book of Mormon and of Jesus Christ, it truly motivated me to work a little harder on my testimony and faith in my Savior. Work hard and be faithful, not giving up hope, though I do not yet know my path for certain.

Then, I taught the lesson in Mission Prep, about obedience and diligence, how we just need to try a little harder, to be a little better, it was a great discussion and the Spirit was there.

RS we discussed the Priesthood, and I thought how important it is to me to marry a worthy priesthood holder, and though I do not know how I will manage the adventure, I know I am not left helpless or alone.

Stake Fireside: BYU Young Ambassadors “I Believe in Christ”

Oh, how I needed this message today. It has brought me so much hope, I wish I had time to write all my notes that I took while listening to their testimonies and songs of Christ. Open your broken heart wide and let Him in. Pray with all energy of heart that you will find Him, for He is searching for you.  One of the songs that touched me the most was a primary song, whose name is currently escaping me, but it is so beautiful, He Sent His Son, to live for us, and now we are here to live for Him, have faith, have hope, live like His Son, help others on their way. That’s all He asks of us. J We can go forward in such a cause. You matter to Him so, so very much. You hold so much value and worth; you are never forgotten or alone. Do not listen to those voices. They are there and sound convincing. The Almighty God has not left you comfortless, alone, forgotten, or neglected. Remember your worth, and choose today to let your heart be comforted concerning your personal Zion, it shall not be moved out of its place, but your Loving God has given you treasures in this life to love and to help, do not neglect them, choosing instead to wallow in self-pity. You know you are safe and loved, now go and help others find it too. He knows your wounded heart and has laid a path at your feet but in order to get anywhere, you must now walk forward. Help those in your path, do all you can. This does not require anything less, or more, than your best. Just keep working hard. You can do it, and have faith and strength sufficient to get there. Yes, waiting is sometimes hard, and scary, but you can keep going today. You can choose to let go and have faith in Him today. He will take care of you. Oh sweet, the joy this sentence gives, “I know, that my Redeemer Lives.” We may all come to know Him, turn to Him, and choose to run to Him now. Do not delay. You will find Him, you will find peace, and you will find the strength and comfort you need to fulfill the desires of your heart. You are precious and treasured, and have a great work to do. Go forth, love and serve God, He sent you, His Daughter, to help others on their way. The things that hold worth in this life take time and effort. Choose today to give it, to learn, to grow, to serve.

Past Entries Post 1

February 12, 2012

-Self-reliance: in Sacrament meeting, we first talked about self-reliance and how it is more than just having temporal things- the first speaker, my old visiting teacher, Susannah Crump, talked about how we truly find happiness by giving it to others. The other speakers also touched on this and it really impressed me to look beyond myself. I’ve been fasting today that I might receive the healing that the Atonement promises, that comes from Jesus Christ, and I truly need to work on giving more of my focus on others. I need to be self-reliant so that I can help bring others to Christ too.

-Receiving and acting on promptings: Brother Bell (2^nd Counselor) shared a story where he acted from a prompting, he had felt that he was being “all logical” and “rational” and yet that was how the Lord was speaking to Him. He speaks quietly and truthfully, and will be there for you always. When you receive a prompting, follow it quickly.

-Dealing with addictions- of any kind; In mission prep today we talked about overcoming addictions and it struck me how and what I am addicted to. Things like doubt, and confusion, stress, berating myself, etc. The solution was even more profound, turn to Christ, He will heal you. I already knew this to be true but it came through again, I felt the testimony grow within me. I am prone to these things but I am not forced to stay in my negativity. I can find peace and healing when I turn to Christ and bear pure testimony about Him to myself and to others. By living my testimony, I will find healing, I will find peace, and I will be able to bring it to others too.

-Coming to know our Savior- reading between the lines- In Relief Society today, we discussed coming to know our Savior, out of the Teachings of the Prophet George Albert Smith manual. We read different scriptures and were asked to tell the class what we learned about who the Savior is. This was really good because I had feared that I did not truly know my Savior, but this lesson reminded me that I do. If I were to meet Him, I would recognize Him, and He would know me. He takes the time for us individually, He weeps with us as we struggle to understand the Lord’s timing, He is patient with our learning process and helps us learn and become better, how to become more like He is. We must take the time for others; we must look past ourselves and see how we can be of service. This was the culmination of the day for me, it tied everything together and I know healing is on its way to me, and that I can be an instrument in Christ’s hands to bring others to healing, I have before and I will be able to again.

Feb. 19, 2012

I went to Stephanie White’s homecoming talk today. She was my first roommate and friend at BYU, and recently came back from her mission in Leeds, England. It was so good to hear her talk, and share her love for the people there. I truly felt the love of God in my heart and it was so wonderful to feel that again. Lately I’ve been a little down and it’s been harder to feel His love in my heart. But, today I did and I am so grateful. She shared a quote, from a talk called “The Fourth Missionary” and it said something about “You can either choose to change deliberately or you can change accidentally.” This lesson is so important to remember, we change and grow, but are we doing it on purpose?

February 26, 2012

Sacrament Meeting: Chastity, Modesty, Endurance, and Identity

Emily Trujillo and Brad Mean discussed chastity and modesty, how they intertwine and the depth of their meaning, how it affects us, others around us, and our divine potential. We need to focus on being an influence for good, we are children of the Most High God, and how we dress and act is vital to shaping our character and to helping each other. Sacred things are often, always, mocked. They are disregarded and people do not reverence them. They are sacred and important, and we need to consciously choose to act in a way that will get us where we want to go.

Celeste Knowles discussed endurance, don’t tell yourself or let yourself be held back by the belief that something is impossible. Set to work on what God has given you. Press forward. Remember how to deal with things when people make choices that directly affect you and your ability to choose. Remember that some of the greatest struggles we face are when we cannot make the choice we want to, our agency. We must continue on the path, it may seem impossible but He has a plan and a way prepared and we must keep walking if we want to get there. We must lead our lives in such a way that we are who we profess to be, that our ideals match our actions, and that we continue to become like God.

The most important thing was discussed in RS and I will talk about the others soon- but we talked about Nephi’s experience when his steel bow broke and he made a new one out of wood- It has just stood out to me how we may have this “ideal” that we are working with, but it may break, it may stop, it may not work out how we thought, but the Lord has given us the wood we need,  that we can work with it and find the True Ideal, the perfect situation, the most important thing to help us become like God. Work with what direction you have and do your best. You will find as you do your part and trust in God that the best thing will fall into place. In Mission Prep we discussed prayer today, and it was so wonderful to think about my prayers, how I can do better and truly develop the relationship with God to have His constant direction in my life. Some things I need to work on come from Preach My Gospel, page 95, keeping my mind focused on His work, how I can improve and pray for those things, then making sure my actions fulfill prayers, (Pray as if it all depends on God, and then work like it all depends on you), making sure I am mindful and sincerely praying for others, and finally, that the Spirit truly guides my prayer, that it is not just me saying words but that the Spirit is an influence and guides me in what I ought to pray for that I may change my will to His that I may pray for the best things and feel His love.

March 4, 2012

Today the biggest thing that I learned is that not only is God aware of my struggles, worries, and life in general, that He has the power to help, and that the hope I feel from Him is real. There is a way prepared and as long as your hope turns you to Christ, you know you are on the right path. Prosper in the Spirit regardless of your circumstance. Keep the hope in your heart and keep trusting in Christ.

Reasoning and Accountebility

This blog is going to serve as my journal for promptings and other thoughts that I had while in my church. This is to avoid just sitting in church. I once heard a quote that says: 

"Just going to church doesn't make you a Christian any more than standing in your garage makes you a car."

Learning and growth is an active process. I desperately need to heed my own advice from my other blog, to truly act and remember and look at myself, see how I'm doing. I don't want to just ask the questions to others. I struggle so often, and I need to critically look and see how I'm doing, and choose something each day to work on.

So, I am going to post some of my older notes from church, and will continue to do so each week, so that I am actively listening and accountable to pay attention and learn continually.